Friday, February 24, 2006
Have u ever felt like digging a hole and burying yourself inside and never coming out again?Well, I had that feeling today; I just wanted to dig a hole and die.Physics Tutorial - the most dreaded and terrible tutorial in my dictionary. Reason? Patrick Lim keeps asking me questions. He never fails to ask me at least a question in every tutorial. I'm not smart. Period. There's no escaping from the cold, hard truth. I can't answer a single of his questions. I'm sick and tired of being humiliated again and again for my lack of wit. I'm frustrated due to lack of sleep, exhausted from 3 consecutive tutorials. My brain is not functioning properly, I've lost my ability to rationalise.I hear something about density and whether it is the same for 1 atom and 1 mole of atoms. My mind blanks out. I hear him calling my name, again. I open my mouth, "No!" I say defiantly. He asks me why. Without even thinking, I say, "Because 1 mole of atoms contains six point zero two times ten to the power of twenty-three atoms." Great! I made a mistake. And answered it so confidently. At that moment I really felt like disappearing off the surface of the Earth. Get real! This is life. Who has not felt embarrassed before? It is through failure that we learn how to succeed. Don't brood over small things, don't make a mountain out of a molehill.I'm not perfect, nobody is perfect. We all make mistakes, we are all human.Stop it, I tell myself.It is no point letting that embarrassing moment run through your thoughts again and again.It doesn't do you any good, any good at all.I'm not going to let my long-awaited weekend be spoilt because of this.No way! I'm going to forget about the whole incident.时间会冲淡一切! *laughs*Anyway, I had harmo today till 7 plus, reached home at 8 plus. Then I had gastric pains. Horrible tugging feeling at the middle of my torso and makes me feel like puking. I had no choice but to break my resolution of not eating so much medicine. I can't take the pain. I feel much better now, no pain anymore, but still feel that horrible feeling of nausea. And there's this stupid video that my mum sent me titled "Ghost". Scared the wits out of me, a poor person with gastric pain. *laughs* Speaking of being frightened, I scared Bel during harmo today by accident. It was pure accident, I assure you. You see, Bel went into the toilet while me and Hui Min stayed outside LT5 laughing our heads off. Then out of the goodness of my heart *laughs* I went to peep at the toilet to see how was Bel. I got a shock when she suddenly walked out of the toilet and I started laughing really loudly. Bel got a shock and screamed.You know, I really enjoy harmo practices. They are the only times that I get to meet Bel and Hui Min and talk to them for hours on end. I really look forward to harmo practices because of that. Must catch up on some sleep during this weekend. I'm so exhausted. Oh, and must prepare Clement's birthday present cum wish him happy birthday today!
